From Fat to Fit Chick: : September 2012   


Sunday, September 23, 2012

Looking Back

I was having a somewhat stressful day Friday.

My back ground....I live right next door to my dad, brothers, an aunt & my grandfather. None have talked to me since March because I have a different opinion than them & I am not going to conform to please them. Instead of letting me have my opinion, I (& my husband and children) have basically been ignored. If I'm not being ignored, they are nasty to me. I know Karma will handle them & I will keep being my happy self despite this family drama. My solution for it? Move & far away lol It's taking way too long to get things in order for us to sell & buy a house.

So back to Friday.....
I found a before picture that didn't show me in all black & just for the hell of it I put a picture I took in my hotel room's mirror last weekend on the other side of it.

I was blown away.

Here I was just moments before being down & sad because of these people that are in my life. I looked at my picture & I felt like I could handle anything that was thrown at me even by people that I thought loved me.

I can remember how hard it was to start. The despair & depression I pulled myself out of. My recent problems are nothing compared to the dark moments that I really wished my life would end.

Yes, the perky & overly optimistic person you know today was that bad off.

I remember the mean things people said to me about my weight & the mean things I told myself.

I am just so, so very glad that I woke up & worked on loving myself. With that love, everything fell into place.

My changes on the outside are amazing when I look at my pictures but the changes on the inside are the most important.

I am truly happy & I feel loved by myself. I know I can get things accomplished on my own. The determination makes me feel a power that is hard to describe.

I can tell you, it takes a lot to put myself out there on my Facebook page or any where else....I feel nervous every time I do it. When I posted this picture the overwhelming positive response brought me to tears. There are a lot of wonderful people on there. If my struggles help people I will always keep posting.

I will keep ROCKing my life & I hope you will ROCK your's too!

Thursday, September 20, 2012

My new workout partners :)

I have been exercising for a long time & there are only maybe a hand full of times I have had a partner.

Enter my sister & my best friend!

Lately we've been getting together and biking almost 10 miles. It's only once a week & it's not the hardcore exercise that I'm used to but we have a blast....calling each other names like "Fire Crotch" when someone complains about their lower regions hurting because of the bike seat or having a mini adventure when a bike pedal falls off.

I enjoy our active time very much. It's like a whole new world opened up. Exercise doesn't have to be serious. It doesn't need to be a big calorie burn either. Just getting out there & doing something fun can be good enough or be a stepping stone for more.

I can't wait to do it again next week ;)

Monday, September 10, 2012

Things I have learned on my journey

These are really random and if you make it through then thank you! lol

~ I can be very stubborn.

~ My body didn't lose like I always wanted.

~ Sweating after cardio makes me feel sexy, however sweating doing nothing turns me into a bitch.

~ I have a new found respect for myself.

~ Seeing my collar bone for the first time since I was a kid was better than waking up on Christmas morning!

~ You can not out exercise a bad diet

~ Get hold of what you eat first.

~ Writing down my emotions after I ate something to self soothe helped me get a grip on it (....for the most part)

~ Food pushers & haters suck ....not letting them win is priceless!

~ Start small & work your way up.

~ Finding ways to make my favorite meals in a healthy way feels like I should get a merit badge.

~ Eyeballing portions is not something I excel at lol

~ Friendships change when you lose weight....sometimes it hurt my feelings but other times I was glad to get the negative out of my life.

~ Positivity breeds positivity

~ It can be more complicated than "Eat less, move more".

~ Loving & accepting myself before starting my journey made it a little easier to want to change.

~ Being able to not take numbers seriously when the scale comes into play was a must for me.

~ Last on this list (but not really last on what I have learned lol) is to educate yourself. If you see something in a magazine or someone tells you something, research if it's something you can do or is a bunch of BS.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

I can post from my phone!

So today was a total bust. I went to a birthday this morning at Chuck E Cheese & started off with a salad. Not too bad.

From there it went down hill & it was all my choosing. A piece of cake, wasn't pretty but I owned up to it in my food diary on My Fitness Pal.

When you slip you need to not beat yourself up & pick right back up. What is in the past is already over. Learn from it & move on.

Life happens :) Roll with it!

Being safe when you exercise alone

I run alone.  Don't talk to me because when I run it is all about me. lol

However I am a woman and we certainly need to protect ourselves just in case something bad happens.

I had a scare today when I tried out a new park to run at this morning so I figured I would put a post out about safety.

  1. Use common sense. Before you even head out for a run, take a minute or two to do a safety check. Are your shoes tied? Are you familiar with your route? Does someone else know where you'll be running? Once you start running, continue with the safety checks. Make sure you're running off the street or against traffic (so you can see cars coming at you). Watch out for cracks or bumps in the sidewalk, or rocks and branches on your running path.
  2. Make sure you're visible. No matter time of day you're running, it's important that you're visible, especially to drivers. Get in the habit of wearing white or bright-colored clothes. When running in the early morning, night, or dusk, make sure you have reflective gear on. Although some items (running shoes, jackets) already have reflective pieces on them, it doesn't hurt to add more. A reflective vest can be worn over any form of running clothing and will definitely help drivers see you.
  3. Don't run alone at night. No matter how comfortable you feel running at night, there's always more safety in numbers. If you usually run solo, try to find a running group so you'll have running partners.
  4. Always have identification on you. Put your driver's license and your medical insurance card (in case you get injured) in your pocket or wear an ID tag on your shoe. If you're wearing an ID tag or bracelet, make sure it has an emergency contact number on it. Whenever possible, I try to run with my cell phone, and it has my ICE (In Case of Emergency) numbers saved. Many runners use running belts to hold their ID and cell phone.
  5. Limit your distractions. I know it's tough -- maybe impossible -- for some of you to run without music, but you really shouldn't use your iPod or MP3 player for outdoor runs. Cutting off your sense of hearing means you can't hear oncoming cars, cyclists yelling to move, unleashed dogs, or any other potential threat. Save your iPod for your treadmill runs. And make sure you pay attention to your surroundings. If you let your mind wander too much, you may find yourself wandering into an unsafe area.
  6. Don't make assumptions about drivers. Remember that many drivers aren't paying attention because they're listening to the radio or talking on their cell phone. Don't assume that drivers can see you or that they'll let you go because you have the right of way. Be sure you make eye contact with drivers at street crossings before you cross. And, better yet, try to stay off the roads as much as possible and stick to running in parks or on paths and sidewalks.
  7. Watch out for cyclists and other runners. Even if you're running on a path or in a park with no cars, always be aware of other runners and cyclists. If you're approaching another runner or cyclist and need to pass them, communicate with him and let them know on which side you're trying to pass. Before you stop or turn around, make sure your path is clear.
  8. Carry cash or ATM card. It's always a good idea to have money on you, in case of emergency. For example, if the weather turns bad, you get lost, or an injury starts bothering you, you may need to take a cab or bus back to your starting point. Some extra cash may also come in handy if you need to stop and buy water, sport drink, food, or first aid supplies during your run.
  9. Trust your instincts. If a location or person makes you feel comfortable, trust your gut and run in the other direction.